Maleficent got her wings back!

A rather personal entry.

2014 is a challenging year for me.

I went to embracing my new year with a nervous breakdown, battling depression of unrequited love, divorced and discovering that my bestest fury friend is battling cancer.

It took me almost a year to recover.

January 2014, after my panic attack, I couldn't function normally for a few months. The underlying problem was still living inside me, with me and around me.. cooking up a storm. Little did I know, that I was living in denial, putting on weight on my shoulders to fix something that was already long broken and unwanted. Me.

And then he is out of your life. It took 3 years to build up the courage to face the fact that it will not last, and when it happens, it was the biggest relief. Maleficent got her wings back!

Maleficent got her wings back!

Maleficent got her wings back!

Maleficent got her wings back!

Maleficent got her wings back!

Maleficent got her wings back!

I am a happy woman again. No longer a girl, as age is creeping up on me. But I am enjoying the little things that life can offer me. The 5 years I had IS the biggest lesson life can teach me.

I decided to try something new. I have always been an avid gym goer from my college days and when I started hiking the last 2 years I wanted more so I started running. 

And boyyyy I ran!

I started with The Burden Run and it was for the sake of wanting to try something new and I got addicted. Read entry here.

When he left, I was on fire. I need to channel it somewhere. Bring em them running kicks, I say!

Reebok One Challenge - Placed  #65 with official time 2:45:49. It was my first obstacle run at half marathon. I got addicted.

New Balance Half Marathon - Placed #49 with official time 2:22:27 my second half marathon. I find running very calm and I enjoy it.

Then I started to have dreams. Since I always have loved the mounains, why not try trail running?

I'm a big fan of Kilian Jornet style of running in the mountains and jungle. He is swift and strong. I could feel his passion for the mountains.

First trail running experience, Petzl Night Trail Running.- Placed #13 with official time of 1:07:47 

9km. I was ecstatic! I never knew I could even get placing for trail running.. in the dark! I knew from that moment, I will #nevernotrunning and I will #runeverything.

The last run for 2014 was actually the Salomon Trail Run 12km and I placed #15 with official time of 1:35:26. I am smiling now typing this. I never knew I could run. I never knew I could run trails. I never knew I could do this on my own. 

I will never stop running.

In a nutshell, I am a better person compared to from beginning of 2014. I learn to put myself first and to love myself more than I ever did before. I also learn that family and friends are the main link to your road to recovery. I did not battle my depression on my own. I fought it with running, fuel my emotions with love from family and friends, and God and end my day with my best fury friend Warwick. He is in a good stable condition today, and I hope he will be for much longer time.

I try to keep my private life private, but this entry is worth sharing. 

Good night!

in order from left to right, my personal accomplishments :)